Sunday, June 27

a greater perspective

As you may know
Lucy's transmission died. 
I realized today
while I was driving home
that this is not the first time this has happened. 

In the past month I have looked at numerous cars. 
Every time I arrived to look at, and potentially buy, the car,
it had been sold just minutes prior.
I took this as bad luck;
but now I see that it was all a real blessing. 
As with Lucy's transmission, 
these instances were annoying and a pain to deal with.
In the end,
I happened upon the perfect car
one that I had imagined was impossible to get. 

The Lord looks out for us in many ways
ways that we may not see. 
ways that may take us weeks, or even years to see. 
ways that we may never see.

We do not know his full plan for us;
and we don't have to.
 He is here to guide and direct us in all of our doings. 
In some of our greatest decisions of life - 
our education, marriage, career -
and in all the little things along the way
such as buying a car. 

It is our job to obey his commandments, 
listen to his prophets' counsel
and do his will
without question. 

I know that if we do this, 
everything will be okay. 
The game of life will be played the way it was meant to be played
and we will win. 
We can ALL win.

We have an amazing opportunity to be here on this Earth. 
We sided with our brother, Jesus Christ in the preexistence.
It is for that reason that we are here. 

Life is not easy, 
But that is the way it was meant to be. 
If life were perfect and easy for everyone, 
it would be called Satan's plan. 

We are here on this Earth to prove to our Heavenly Father
that we love him. 
That we will be instruments in his hands
and do what it takes to return to him 
and become like him. 
We will obey his will, 
and help others to find the true happiness he brings to us. 
That is his eternal plan. 
To bring to pass the immortality and eternal life of man. 
ULTIMATE HAPPINESS
Not short term ecstasy from a drink, 
or a one night stand. 
Not feeling like the most beautiful person in the world
because all the guys want to take you home.
Not having a rich and fabulous life.
Not graduating first in your class from Harvard or Stanford or MIT.
Not holding the single most important political position in the world.  

These things, 
though to the world may seem to bring happiness
do not do so. 
We all know this is true. 

How many beautiful stars
with glamorous lifestyles
and everything they could possibly ask for in the world
are unhappy?
How many of the smartest people in the world, 
are unsatisfied because they are not THE smartest?
Was Einstein happy?

If we continually strive to please the world,
we will never achieve happiness. 

I am not saying stars, and government officials cannot be happy. 
They absolutely can be. 
Warren Buffett is one of the richest men in the world. 
He still lives in the same house that he lived in 20 years ago. 
*now it had a helicopter landing pad 
But nothing else has changed. 
You can call him up on the phone and he will talk to you like any other person. 
He is different from Oprah, or Bill Gates. 
He doesn't seem to care that he has money. 
He is himself, and does not try to please the world. 
And I bet he is happy. 

When we give up the natural man
and listen to the Lord and his counsel, 
we can achieve true ETERNAL happiness. 
Mosiah 3:19

What more could we ask for?


I will get off my soapbox now. 
I just felt inspired to share my thoughts on the subject. 
I do not claim to be perfect in this area either;
infact, I am mostly preaching to myself. 

Thursday, June 24

Time

Do you ever feel like time passes too quickly?
I certainly do
there are never enough hours in the day to get done all that needs to be
and life itself flies by
why can't it simply slow down?

work is busy
too busy
I can't complain though
i make good money
Lucy's transmission died
so 
I have been to the dealership more in the past week
than I have in my life
but I have another car now
name ideas?
still no man in my life
but whats new
life is good
had some eye opening experiences recently
no big brass band moments
 but realizations
that i am grateful i finally had

i just wish sometimes it would all slow down
its already almost July

Wednesday, June 16

Lucy

I keep looking out the front door
expecting to see some old car 
one that is not so cute

but I continue to be surprised
that this is for real
I bought a car today

I named her Lucy

I love Lucy

Thursday, June 10

you are beautiful

too many times I forget this
I think we all do.

but it's the truth.

we need to just let go of our insecurities


and smile
photos by Papertissue

Girls Camp

I was able to go to girls camp again this year
but as a leader, 
not a camper.

It was fun
but different than before.
I guess that is what growing up does to you.

Tuesday, June 1

tourist for a week

I KNOW IT HAS TAKEN FOREVER. AND IT IS STILL NOT DONE. but i am tired of waiting for more  pictures.... so here you go!

So here are some tidbits from my adventures in Waikiki...
(the "gang" refers to Kylie, Jessica, Sydney, Kaitlin, and I)
Monday
 
the gang checked into the hotel
went shopping for food
 then headed out for a day of adventure on the Waikiki strip
making sure to stop at the International Market Place
a bird pooped on my head
we ate dinner at Macaroni Grill at the famous Ala Moana Shopping Center
some friends came down to join us
Kaitlin and I had our first birthday celebration of the week, (20th and 23rd) and our waiter sang to us in Italian!
We only had one car to get back to the Hotel that night, so we squeezed 8 people in the main section of the car, and Jessica and Kaitlin volunteered to ride in the trunk. They're crazy.
Tuesday
the gang- minus Kylie, plus Dane and Andrew- headed out at 3:00 am Tuesday morning to hike Stairway to Heaven, an old military staircase to the top of a mountain 
 about halfway up, there is a hut that the military used to have a cable cart run to in order to get supplies up to the lookout.  It has since been covered in grafitti and it is awesome!
around 5:40 am we reached the top and boy were we happy. 
 it had rained for the first half of the climb which was really unfortunate and made the journey much harder, especially going down 
 
we waited for the sunrise
then began our descent back down
stopping to take the occasional picture here and there
who woulda thunk it was dangerous?
it took much longer than it should have, due to the rain, but thankfully we all made it back down in one piece. 
we were EXHAUSTED so we spent a the afternoon relaxing at the pool :) *photo edits by Kaitlin
the gang walked to Ala Moana again that evening and passed some friends along the way!
 Jamba Juice in the food court...
then for some shopping
some of us were very exhausted and fell asleep in the dressing room... so we headed back to the hotel for a good night's rest
WEDNESDAY
the gang plus Champ and Dane headed to Swap Meet via the bus!
we found some really awesome stuff 
 did you know you could send coconuts in the mail?
for lunch, we made macaroni & cheese in the coffee maker!
that night, the gang - plus Jarek, Champ, and Dane - headed out for another night on the Waikiki strip  
 
we had fun playing at the Ferrari store :) 
then ate at the Cheesecake Factory 
where Kaitlin, Jarek and I celebrated our birthdays again (20th, 21st, and 23rd) 
Then off to bed at the Hotel for a good night's rest. 
THURSDAY  
Thursday was a relaxed day beginning with a massage at Spa Olakino
followed by a glorious day at the beach; though I must say, Waikiki beaches are nothing compared to the beauty and tranquility of the North Shore.  
 I did try my hand at surfing!  I only caught one wave, but give me more than 45 mins and I could be great ;)
 once again, we walked to Ala Moana for the evening
 nothing too exciting... Panda Express kids meal and Jamba Juice for dinner, some shopping, then back to the Hotel for Moulin Rouge and sleep. 
FRIDAY 
a very relaxed day
 
 hanged out on the strip...
stopped at Planet Hollywood
Dennis Quaid! we had just seen him filming at pounders a week or so before!
ate at Coldstone Creamery
and the food court on the strip
checked email at the apple store

explored the wildlife :)
and stopped to explore St. Augustine Catholic church before the 5:00 mas
finally, we said our last goodbyes to Jarek :(
we went to P F Chang's for dinner
then had intentions of watching the last song, but instead went home to crash before our big day
SATURDAY 
Saturday was one of the greatest days in history
at 8:00, the gang set out on mopeds to explore the island! 
stop one: Hanauma Bay!
where Jessica and I went snorkeling
 
 
and saw sea turtles!
and fish :)
we then stopped at the grocery store and picked up some snacks;
aka bread, pretzels, peanut butter, and NUTELLA!
that we ate at one of the beautiful lookouts on the windward side
next, we rode around to the Makapu'u point light and took the trek up to the top!


SUNDAY
sunday was a day of rest as we spent our last day sleeping by the pool waiting for the time to come to shower and head to the airport.
While waiting at the gate, Jessica and I watched our dance concert on my computer.
then it was time to say Aloha to one of my best friends in the whole wide world.

and Aloha to the most amazing chapter of my life.
I cried the entire 14+ hours of the trip home that I was not sleeping.

and i cry almost every day.
i want to go back.