"Humility is not thinking less of ourselves,
it's thinking less about ourselves..."
College is such a selfish time; we constantly think about our grades, our finances, our time, our social life. It is so easy to become engrossed in the ME of it all. We often loose sight of long term goals because we're so caught up in right now; we forget about the big picture. So I asked myself:
Why
am I here?
To become an Electrical Engineer.
Why BYU?
Because no where else in the world can offer the spiritual enlightenment and academic superiority that BYU does.
Why EE?
I've always wanted to do the hardest thing possible.
Okay, but what are you going to do with it?
I want to go to graduate school for Biomedical Engineering so I can design surgical robots.
You can get an incredible job in industry right after you graduate. Why more education? And besides, you may not even make it that far before you are married and a stay at home mom.
I want to learn more. I want to benefit society and make an impact in the lives of those around me. I know I may get married along the way. When that happens, I will give up everything to be the best mom in the world. But until then, I can learn a lot and help so many people. And besides, it's a crazy world we live in. You never know when I might need to go back to work - even with a family.
Won't it be hard to give up a great career to be a mom?
All I have ever wanted out of life is to be a mom. It is my ultimate dream. Nothing could ever change my mind about that.
Have you considered serving a mission?
I never imagined I would even consider serving a mission. But the thought is definitely there now. A mission would be a true test of my faith, and would strengthen my testimony by leaps and bounds. I would be able to serve the Lord's children and bring them to his Gospel. An incredible opportunity to say the least, but we will see.
Are you happy right now?
I try every day to be. Some days it may be a little harder - full of stress and anxiety - but I try to focus on the positive. Remind myself why I am here. Remind myself that I am a daughter of God, and that he loves me so much. He has a specific role for me, and that can only be filled in his time.
Anything else?
I love my family. I am so proud of each and every one of them. They are incredible people and a great example to me. I am so grateful to them for the little things they do; a constant reminder of His ultimate plan for happiness. I cannot wait to see them later this summer. And I can't wait until we have our own families; the reunions are going to be off the hook. Our kids are going to be running around the lake house like wild banshees (just like we do :)) and we are going to attack them from behind with a swarm of nerf guns. They'll think we're old and dumb, but we'll surprise them. Then we'll all go run off the dock and jump into the water, laughing and having so much fun. Little Samantha will punch little Grant in the nose for stealing her raft, then little Mandy will poke a hole in the raft, "Now you guys don't have anything to fight about!" Samantha junior is going to dominate the pool tournaments, Mandy junior the dominoes, Grant junior Rock Band. As for my kids - we'll dominate hide-and-seek :) Mom and Dad will spoil them rotten and they will never want to go home. It's going to be great.