Trials

"The Lord gives us trials so we can become stronger. So that we can make ourselves stronger..." 

- Martin

My home teachers are the greatest. 

Martin and Alex. 

Today they brought K and I a wonderful lesson 

(and some giant brownies)

and we discussed our trials in life. 

I'd like to share a few thoughts on the subject.

This past week, some really terrible things happened to me. 

For example, a program that took me 8 hours to write was deleted from my hard-drive. 

A VERY lofty assignment for the TA to misplace. 

As upset as I was, 

I almost immediately tried to look at the positive that would come from re-writing the program.

When discussing the dilemma with a friend, he made the statement, 

"Why are you okay with this?  You have a right to be pissed off right now"

I thought about his statement.

Yes I had a right, per-say, 

but where does infuriation get me?

I have a mixture of feelings towards trials.  

I have had many trials

PLENTY in my early teenage years

and plenty more now.

But I've never really thought of them as a major burden. 

As annoying and hurtful as some of my situations have been, 

I never thought it was that bad. 

I always took them as a learning opportunity

and saw the good that could follow. 

Here's where my mixed feelings come in;

Sometimes, 

oftentimes, 

I wonder if these are the big, life changing trials that everyone talks about.

To the outside world, my trials certainly might appear that way.

But I've never found them Earth-shattering.  

So, do I just have a really good outlook on life?

or has nothing truly terrible ever happened to me?

has the Lord been testing me and I am passing?

or have I not been handed a true trial yet?

I know that there are much harder times to come, 

but I am a little apprehensive about right now.

Thoughts on the subject?